ships in the night.

Thursday, September 5, 2013

Kiss me quick

What is sucide?

How badly is it going to hurt me when you say good bye.


I want you there, always.

So badly.

No matter what. no matter the silly arguments we have.

I'd do anything to always be in your arms.

Every hello ends with a goodbye, but I don't want ours to end.

I may be a bit silly.

I may not have the most patience.

but holy hell. I am scared.

I'm doing my best to be the best.

I know that our friendship is real.

Mom, you have no clue how much I freaking adore you.

I am so grateful for all the things you have done for me.

I wouldn't be the young lady I am today if it wasn't for you.

SERIOUSLY. life can get hard.
but know, that it will pass.

You are so wonderful and you are an amazing human.

You shine so bright.

Wednesday, September 26, 2012

My life, as it goes on.

August came to an Ended.
I started school 3 classes with Natalia!
It's weird.
I saw Hairspray & Aladdin!
It was so cool!
I went on a road trip, I went to many temples of Utah! We started off in Manti, then the Mt. Timpanogos, Provo, Jordan River, Okermountian, Draper, Logan, I got to do Baptism for the dead in all of them! It was so nice. I also got to go to the open house of te Brigham City Temple,

I also got to go to the City Fair, that was such an awesome night.

I got to meet my step grandma.
She's adorable.

I have to say, life is AMAZING! I adore everyone in it.

Youth council is amazing.
I also made Historian for NHS!

I'm loving my senior year.

It's been an amazing year.

My life is kind of figures out but not really.

COLLEGE is coming up fast!

Anyways. This is my life & I'm grateful!!
I love all my friends & family.
I miss my daddy.

For Christmas break I wanna spend it with him! :)

Friday, August 10, 2012

Something new, everyday.

My life seems to go by fast. I feel like summer just started, but now it's ending. I don't want it to come to an end. I do love school, but it's going to be my senior year. I don't know what to expect, but all I know is that I'm going to be going to high school with my little sister. I'm so excited about that. I believe it will be an amazing year for us. 

{ I got to see my father before we moved out to Washington. We went to Vegas and walked around then went to a hotel to sleep. Then the next day we went swimming all day! Then we went to dinner at Texas De Brazil. My dad is a kind man. I look up to him. I don't know what I'd do with out him. He means the world to me. I can't wait to see him again.}

This year I got to move out to Seattle, Washington for the summer. I didn't want to move in the first place. I wanted to be here with my friends. but once I met people in Washington, I loved it there. The first Sunday I was there we went downtown & to pikes place. Then Natalia & I went to the "He is We" Concert, I love going to concerts no matter what they are always fun. Natalia & I went to a stake dance where we knew NO ONE. we had the time of our lives.

{ I feel like my bond with Natalia has gotten so much better. I love her tons. I love being around her. She always makes me smile. She's wonderful & gorgeous.}

While I was living in Washington I got to see a lot of beautiful things. I got to go on an Island, it was super pretty. I got to go see the Katy Perry movie with my little sister, & then we went to Panera Bread. It's one of the best places. Sadly there isn't one where I live. I got to go to the beach and eat a lot of fish. Washington is an amazing state. I really want to go back someday. It rained about the whole month of June, expect on Sundays. 

I started going to church out in Washington. The people there are amazing. I enjoy going to church. I had the opportunity to go to Youth Conference while I was up there. I have such an amazing time. I learned a lot, and it drew me closer to my Heavenly Father. I was surrounded by amazing youth & leaders. Then the time rolled around and next thing I knew I was moving out. 
I didn't know what to expect but boy was I excited. 

My lovely {Mother, Tina} picked me up at the airport. We went to Wendy's. 
{Tina Is an amazing mom. She's been taking care of me, she's also letting me take care of her two adorable kids. She even invited me for dinner a couple of times. I love her. she's a big blessing in my life. I'm so grateful to have someone as caring and thoughtful as her. She's one of my hero's and I look up to her as if she was my own mother. }

Then I was off to girls camp! Which couldn't have been better. I love my home ward. Everyone I meet is just amazing. It's wonderful. On Tuesday we went Kayaking. Girls camp also brought me closer to my Heavenly Father. I made best friends with the new laurel in my ward. Her name is Mandi. We get a long so well. We instantly bonded. Testimony meeting was my favorite part about girls camp. I just have so much LOVE towards the girls and leaders in my ward. Everyone cares, and everyone is super friendly. it's amazing. When we got to the last day, we just wanted to be home! We tried to convince our leaders to let us go home early, we almost had them!
{ Mandi & I have been inseparable. We do everything together. I spent a bunch of time at her house. She has an amazing family that watched out for me. again, I couldn't have been more blessed. I feel like we're going t be best friends forever.}

Then it was time for the Washington Youth Council Retreat. We didn't know where we were going, we had to pack light. I thought we were going up to the cabin. It turned out that we were going to Lake Powell. I love Lake Powell so much. One day I'm going to buy a house boat there and be amazing at wake boarding. We got to know each other better and we learned so many things. My position is Leisure Services. Everyone on the Youth Council is awesome & nice.
(* side note. I want to do so many different things with my life.)
July was just an amazing month.  

I went to Fiesta Fun for the very first time. Then I went to Anitgravity. Then I went and did Baptisms for the dead in the St. George Temple for the first time. It was amazing. 

I can't forget, I've been baby sitting like crazy. I'm pretty much a millionaire now.  I take care of my {siblings - Tina's kids} They're adorable. I just baby sit for everyone. I want to be a nanny next summer.  
Then I baby sat for the bests, they went out of town and me and the kids had a blast. 
We went swimming, then we went to Yougurtland, we rented a movie, I bought them all goldfish, we went to a baptism. Sunday we went to church, we watched Mirror Mirror, It was an adorable movie. then we went and had a picnic at the temple grounds & we went inside the visitor center to watch some of the movies there. Then Monday we had a lemonade stand. We cleaned and made sure the house was clean. I had a blast, and so did the kids.

I tried out for volleyball..  

Monday, May 28, 2012

this time of year.

May is the best time of the year.

Because school ends
& summer starts.
My summer started two weeks ago.
which has been fun.
I've been soaking up the sun.
St. George is really the best place to live.
People from up north come down, all the time pretty much.
Which is nice because I get to catch up with my friends more then I thought I would. 
Last week it was boy 
and this weekend is my gorgeous friend Mayra. 
I;ve had so many amazing people come into my life thes past few month and past years.
It's like theres a right path, and im on that path making good friends.
I'm so blessed and greatful.
I love everyone around me.
there is so much to do in this cute city.
life is wonderful.
i have fanastic parents.
which so happens that my dad is coming into town today.
Pretty excited for that.
it's been a couple of months sense I have seen him.
but we stay close.
he knows everything about me.
I want to marry someone as amazing as my daddy.
he will go out of his way to get you anything.
he will scarifece his life for you.
Im blessed and so is my little sister. well..
I love you papa.
I love you mama even thought you have a low temper sometimes.
i love you nat even though you can be really mean and hurt my feelings sometimes. 

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

One step at a time.

MOVING... sucked.
the whole fact of getting rid of many things.
My house... my room.. the hardest was going into a new room.
which is weird, because i created an atachment to my bed room.
it was always nice coming home from school and going to my pink room.
We had our days, i would say my room is the place anythings happened.
our glitter fights. kitties running around the wood floor, the birds flying around.
Sleep overs with friends.
Leaving it behind was hard.
Leaving friends.
but this move has been great.
it's been a blessing.
I couldn't have asked for something better.
Ya, I miss Orem.
But i'm loving it here.
The weather is just so great, but that's a bonus.
School started, which was hard.
different. the teachers are great and so are the kids.
i feel like i'm making friends fast.
which is a good thing.
I finally have people to hang out with on weekend.

People down here are so friendly.
I love my ward.
they are the best.
New beggings was today. which was wonderful. totally what i needed.

Life is grand. I have every reason to be greatful.
every reason to smile.
every reason to be happy.

people will forget about you.
people will stop to worry.
you're true friends will always be there for you.

Sunday, January 8, 2012

heavenly father is to kind; he put good people in our lives.

 I love you. That sounds weird, but I do.
You are such a blessing in our lives.
You are such a sweetheart.
It's crazy, beyond crazy.
Reading your blog makes me cry.
I'm glad you and Natalia are friends.
You have made a big difference in her life.
We talk about you often. Well mostly Natalia.

Yeah, don't ever move.
Moving is hard, & different.
Natalia starts her very first day at school tomorrow.
She's going to a charter school.. It should be fun!
She gets to wear a unifrom.
She's not happy about that.
but it's cute.

Guess what! Next year I might even be lucky enough to be able to go to school with her!
It's something I've always wanted to go to school with my sister.

I can't imagne how hard it is to see two of your best friends leave the same week.
but dang girl, you're super strong.
Thank you for praying for us.
It sure has helped!
You are wonderful.
Please stay in our lives forever?

We are going to orem.
Soon... Wanna know how soon?
SUPER SOON! like four more days.
So you & natalia better be hanging out!:)
if you can.

St. George is fun, there is so many pretty mountains/hills!
You better be coming down soon to see us!
We have a hot tub, tramp, & it's warm here!
so if you ever need to get away from the lovely snow,
we are only four hours away. You're more then welcome here!

Merry late Christmas?
& a happy new year.
Make 2012 a even better year!

Keep up your amazing soccer skills!
Next thing you know you'll be on the Timpanogos team!
& you'll have Natalia & I cheering you!
I want natalia to get back into soccer.
We talked about it, then natalia said
then i'll play against Aubrey,
& my mom said something about... How is it going to be playing against your best friend.

You are such a good influence in mine and natalias life.
You guys will always be friends! 
I love reading you're blog.
I feel like such a creep because I wrote this about you, but I felt the need to let you know. it's silly. but I'm here for you whenever you need a friend or even an "older sister."
Natalia & I love you!

Wednesday, January 4, 2012


It's all happening to fast.
First it's my first day of school
Then it's my last at Timpanogos.
Next thing I know I've moved away.
Moved away from my life.
Away from the school I was going to graduate from.
A whole new fresh start.
Some say they're jealous? But why.?
I don't get it. I kinda enjoyed where I was. I enjoyed going to school at nine. Missing first period because they didn't take attendance. I loved the awkward silence in yearbook, nahhh.
I'll sure miss the friends I had, & I sure hope that they'll still be my friends.. In only a couple of hours away. I got broken up with because he didn't want a long distance relationship. I get it.

I really hope this whole new school thing will do me well! I'm positive I'll meet the right people & make wonderful friends!! I can't wait. Tomorrow is my first day at pine view...
Originally I was to go to tuachun.. But they don't let students get in threw half a year. So senior year!!

I feel like such a kid. I'm so excited. I just want it to be the next day! & experience school.

I took a tour if the school earlier today..., CONFUSING. tomorrow I have .. Then ,,, the pe then seminary! I'm ready to get lost!

Morning come faster.